On My Knees by Meredith Wild
Haunted by the responsibility of caring for her troubled family, Maya Jacobs gave the only answer she could when Cameron asked her to marry him. Years later, entrenched in a soulless professional routine, she distracts herself from the lingering regret of her decision with a “work hard, play hard” lifestyle that guarantees no man will ever find his way into her heart again.
Cameron Bridge has spent the past five years married to the military, trying to escape the painful memory of losing Maya. After fighting his own war in the desert, he starts a new life in New York City, with his siblings, Olivia and Darren, by his side.
When fate brings Maya back to him in the heart of a city filled with its own hopes and shadows, can Cameron find the girl he once loved in the woman she’s become?
About the Author:
Meredith Wild is a USA Today and international bestselling author of erotic romance. She lives in Boston with her husband and three children. When she’s not writing or interacting with fans, she’s working with high-tech startups.
My Review & Rating:
Now I had the pleasure of reading On My Knees before its release, and it’s pretty safe to say that I’m pretty head over heels for this book. At The Never Ending Book Basket I tend to use my crazy ass tendencies to list the reasons of why I loved a book. Today is no different, but I’m going to try to reign it in a smidge because I could seriously go on and on about how much I loved this book. Think I’m merely joking? Go ask the author how many pages of “happy” notes I sent her after beta reading the book… It was kind of ridiculous.
Let me preface this review by letting you in on a not so little secret: I am a BIG Meredith Wild fan. I’ve read all her books (possibly more than once…), I’m on her street team, Team Wild, and I pretty much tell anyone who is breathing and standing upright to read her books.
Suffice to say, I like the Kool Aide she’s selling. :)
But what I really want you to know this very instant, is that this review will not do On My Knees or Meredith Wild as much justice as they both deserve. It just won’t be good enough. This book and its author are just that extraordinary that my words are going to pale in comparison. But don’t you worry your pretty little head one bit because I’m still going to let you know what I thought of On My Knees. (You were worried, weren’t you?)
On My Knees was visceral, extremely vulnerable, and raw in many instances. It had moments that will break your heart and put you back together all in the same breath, and it was magnificently sweet in the way all us lovers of love stories will just simply love. (Can you tell I like the word love?)
So staying true to my OCD form, here is what I truly adored about On My Knees:
You hit the ground running. This book jumps feet first into this couple, all their feelings, and all their extremely raw emotions. It’s wham bam thank you mam from the get go, so be ready to get sucked into it all. You will feel Maya and Cameron from the very beginning, and you won’t stop feeling with them until you’re done on that very last page.
The repercussions of choice. In the beginning a choice is made, and both Cameron and Maya are still presently reeling from the repercussions of that choice. Those repercussions effect each of them differently, but affect them they do. The reasons for that choice are thoughtfully explained and presented over the course of the story, as Maya and Cameron are presented with another chance with at being together. Seeing those repercussions up close and personal in the present tense makes for a truly thoughtful and enthralling story in On My Knees.
Maya’s got some chutzpah. Maya is who she is, and she’s got some serious backbone. She is unapologetic in a lot of ways, and she completely owns that. Even though sometimes I wanted to shake her because she was being so difficult, I simply adored her. I felt for her from beginning to end, and I thought her character development was SPECTACULAR. It felt extremely well-paced, never too fast or too slow. Just right. Maya’s vulnerability comes across beautifully, and it’s easy to understand why she feels, thinks, and acts the way she does. Maya also has a past that gets revealed over the course of the story, and I felt that these revelations came across wonderfully, and helped really explain why the chips fell the way they did.
Cameron’s making my heart melt. Cameron was just a good guy. He is honest from the get go, and he’s not afraid to put it all out there. He puts his vulnerability on display, and I liked that he was just willing to go there. He recognized his mistakes and he owned them, which took a lot in my opinion. He knew when he fucked up, and boy did he try to make up for the choices he made. Cameron is also possessive of Maya in a way that is endearing, yet doesn’t make you want to call the cops. It was balanced well, and it fit his character exponentially. He was stubborn as all get out, but he never stopped trying and his feelings were truly his. Hence why he just made my heart melt throughout the whole book. He’s also really good looking, so there’s that too…
Team Eli all the way! This book had a ton of supporting characters that I just wanted to eat up, but one kind of stuck with me. That was Eli. He is a voice of reason in this book. He also added some much loved light heartedness at points in the story, and best of all he doesn’t take any bullshit, and I like that something fierce.
The chemistry between Cameron and Maya. Get your fans ready because Cameron and Maya have a spark that flies off the page in spades. It’s palpable at times, and you will feel their connection to one another as if it were you yourself feeling those things. How that connection and spark changes, evolves, and grows over the story also makes for something pretty darn lovely too.
The supporting characters that round it all out. Now I may have a favorite (cough cough Eli) but this book has some supporting characters that will blow you out of the water. At times they add the humor that you didn’t even know you needed, the drama you love, and the clarity our two main love birds kind of lack when they’re busy with their heads up their butts. (In their defense though, they do have a lot of baggage within their past and present, so it’s easy to see how they could get caught up in it all.) Each of these characters add their own flavor that fits seamlessly in with what is happening with Maya and Cameron. They all work together like very intricate pieces of a seriously well thought out and developed puzzle.
More emotion than you can shake a stick at. This book will run the gamut on your emotions. It is chalk full of gut wrenching ups and downs that will leave you breathless, laughing, smiling like a fool, melting into puddles of emotion, fanning yourself repeatedly, and it’s just honestly outstanding. The level and range of emotion makes the story what it is, and it honestly sets it apart from other books I’ve read. Do not doubt that you will feel every single emotion with every fiber of your body.
Feel the balance. This is probably too simple a word to describe this book, but it honestly fits the book like a glove. Every aspect works together to tell a story of pain, some very raw and visceral emotion, some serious stubbornness, transformation, healing, and of course, an overwhelming sense of love. This story follows Maya and Cameron as they try to find, build, and cross the bridge from where they were to where they actually want to be. Their journey is wholly theirs, and makes for an extremely engaging story that in the end will leave you feeling extremely balanced, and extremely in love with these two majorly enthralling characters.